Tufts and whole feathers, the
stainless steel knives, the rain caught hold of the edges of everything in
eyeshot and held on to it as if it were afraid of centrifugal force, the
movement of the planet itself. By that time, our calendars had filled up so
quickly we forgot what they were good for. The sunlight poured in afterward
through windows we had left open so as to be able to catch a glimpse of whoever
marched up the driveway intending to warn us of the machinations of the town
council or wag their fingers in our faces due to something our children had
done, or were suspected of doing. It was enough to cause the flesh on the back
of the hands to turn an unusual yellow and make the library books on the end
table seem suddenly fascinating, the trips downriver in search of those who had
made the trip previous and were now missing, the charts and the arguments for
the spreading of wealth like the invaluable contents of a newly-smashed barrel
of molasses. I made it half way up the side of the river bank before gravity
and the fear of falling were too much for me and I would probably be there
still but for the assistance, the bravery and the surprising physical strength,
of the boy who lived up the street. His formulas were immaculate and should
properly have led to a scholarship and a life of, if not leisure exactly, then
moderate exertion, but he died on the road that led out of town and you can see
the makeshift memorial there to this day with its dull gray ribbons and its
plank boards nailed together to form a haggard-looking cross. Time has made it
crooked. Which is the proper configuration, if you think about it, but you’re
not supposed to think about it. Our sentences run from three months to a dozen
years and we serve them as if they had never actually been handed down at all,
as if we simply woke up one morning and realized it was to be, in each and
every respect, the same sort of morning as the one that had preceded it, and
when the time came for the shadows to blacken and obscure the corners of the
porch, to spill in through crevices and cracks in the plaster, we refused to
treat this as something ominous or even particularly meaningful. It was
something we studied as we might study the contours of the twilight or the
David of Michelangelo (in photographs of course) – as something to put your
eyes on for a moment before you decided to put them on something else, maybe a
soiled length of rope.